Hey guys,
I think I'm gonna take a break from Basenotes for a while. A few reasons. One, I spend alot of time on here "wasting time" when I should be working on some things. I have some ambitions that I need to get to work fulfilling. Its too easy for me to find distractions to keep myself from facing tasks that need to be done. While I love posting on here and reading what you all have to think, I really need to use the time in other ways right now. So its a matter of time.
Also, I think this hobby can put some of us on the cusp of some OCD-like behavior, and while its fun to joke about it- really, it can be a serious problem. I've spent too much time thinking about fragrances when I should have been focusing on other things. It is kind of a sickness when you can't leave the house without putting on a fragrance. And then also, alot of times I had a subconscious desire to take a bath or shower. I realized it wasn't that I felt dirty, it was just an issue of I wanted to wash off whatever fragrance I was wearing, even if it was a favorite scent.
Today I went to work and didn't wear a fragrance for the first time in as long as I can remember. Every so often I would get that impulse to dab a little something on, but I resisted. And honestly, I felt great after my shift. I'm not wearing anything right now, and I like the feeling of neutrality. I have some serious problems feeling comfortable in my own skin, and I think wearing fragrances may have actually caused this problem to worsen. Plus I need to address my allergies and dependence on OTC nasal spray- which is made worse by colognes. I wake up most nights with my nose blocked off and breathing through my mouth. If I want to kick my habit , I'm gonna have to cut out those things that contribute to the problem. I'm thinking of boxing up my whole drobe and taping it up and putting it in my parents basement, so I won't have my frags lying around. I might keep one or two to wear if I'm going out- once or twice a week, tops. Once I get on some daily allergy medication and kick the nasal spray thing, I'd like to come back to wearing fragrances with a fresh nose. I want to smell the roses, not myself all the time. I've been a bit narcissistic at times, and its not an attractive quality.
So its a time issue, a mental health issue, a physical health issue and a money issue as well. I just paid off all of my credit card debts(It feels great). I told myself I was gonna reward myself with a bottle of Voleur de Roses, but I'm gonna wait. I might get myself a bottle after I resolve my issues.
I might pop in to chat about music or something on the OT boards, but its probably for the best if I don't come here much for a while. I need to get some stuff ironed out in my life, and this seems like a natural decision. I'll miss talking to you, and I just know some stories will happen that I will want to share with you so bad, but I probably won't. I hope I get this stuff worked through soon, because it will be hard to stay away.
I'll miss you guys, but I'll be back at some point down the road. I may come by and read your posts occasionally, but posting myself is something I don't want to be doing much of for a while.
Stay classy!
Regards,
Indie Guy
I think I'm gonna take a break from Basenotes for a while. A few reasons. One, I spend alot of time on here "wasting time" when I should be working on some things. I have some ambitions that I need to get to work fulfilling. Its too easy for me to find distractions to keep myself from facing tasks that need to be done. While I love posting on here and reading what you all have to think, I really need to use the time in other ways right now. So its a matter of time.
Also, I think this hobby can put some of us on the cusp of some OCD-like behavior, and while its fun to joke about it- really, it can be a serious problem. I've spent too much time thinking about fragrances when I should have been focusing on other things. It is kind of a sickness when you can't leave the house without putting on a fragrance. And then also, alot of times I had a subconscious desire to take a bath or shower. I realized it wasn't that I felt dirty, it was just an issue of I wanted to wash off whatever fragrance I was wearing, even if it was a favorite scent.
Today I went to work and didn't wear a fragrance for the first time in as long as I can remember. Every so often I would get that impulse to dab a little something on, but I resisted. And honestly, I felt great after my shift. I'm not wearing anything right now, and I like the feeling of neutrality. I have some serious problems feeling comfortable in my own skin, and I think wearing fragrances may have actually caused this problem to worsen. Plus I need to address my allergies and dependence on OTC nasal spray- which is made worse by colognes. I wake up most nights with my nose blocked off and breathing through my mouth. If I want to kick my habit , I'm gonna have to cut out those things that contribute to the problem. I'm thinking of boxing up my whole drobe and taping it up and putting it in my parents basement, so I won't have my frags lying around. I might keep one or two to wear if I'm going out- once or twice a week, tops. Once I get on some daily allergy medication and kick the nasal spray thing, I'd like to come back to wearing fragrances with a fresh nose. I want to smell the roses, not myself all the time. I've been a bit narcissistic at times, and its not an attractive quality.
So its a time issue, a mental health issue, a physical health issue and a money issue as well. I just paid off all of my credit card debts(It feels great). I told myself I was gonna reward myself with a bottle of Voleur de Roses, but I'm gonna wait. I might get myself a bottle after I resolve my issues.
I might pop in to chat about music or something on the OT boards, but its probably for the best if I don't come here much for a while. I need to get some stuff ironed out in my life, and this seems like a natural decision. I'll miss talking to you, and I just know some stories will happen that I will want to share with you so bad, but I probably won't. I hope I get this stuff worked through soon, because it will be hard to stay away.
I'll miss you guys, but I'll be back at some point down the road. I may come by and read your posts occasionally, but posting myself is something I don't want to be doing much of for a while.
Stay classy!
Regards,
Indie Guy
