Another breakup fragrance needed :(

Oh God! I'm really crushed. My boyfriend and I have only been dating for less than six months but he flew me out to see him last month for an unbelievable trip, and I was really in love with him. He was going to get to come visit me in Alaska temporarily throughout the year, but he got a promotion...and because of his job, we're not going to be able to see each other, so he broke things off today.

I am so sad. He bought me three of my favorite scents, Chergui, Ambre Sultan, and A La Nuit. I don't know what I should do. I'm re-reading Silvergirl's thread but I was so upset that I decided to post my own thread, since my situation has nothing to do with Silvergirl's.

I'm not sure if I should temporarily abandon my favorite scents, but I'm trying to think of something that would be a good way to express grief and move through the situation. I'm going to try Songes as well as some dark, rainy scents.

Any suggestions for a fragrance that's dark, clear, and rainy? I'll have to see if Demeter has something like thunderstorm. All my scents are rich, heady orientals (Chergui, Ambre Sultan, Angel, Prada, Narciso Rodriguez) and I think I might like something that's opposite to that.

As I've posted earlier, I have not found a single marine scent that I like, and I intensely dislike anything that contains my hated dry/metallic note (see http://community.basenotes.net/showthread.php?t=189885), like Creed's Love in White.

Thank you for letting me vent. I feel terrible. I'm a crying mess... I don't know how I'm going to fix my makeup...and I can't believe I have to go back to work after this! (right now I'm at home on my lunch break)

Thank you, everyone, for posting in my thread.

Although I normally love the dark, rich fragrances that I wear (orientals, gourmands), my heart just hurts too much to enjoy them. That's why I wanted something clear and rainy, I guess to help wash away the sadness. There's also an aspect of wallowing in grief, too.

My Frederic Malle samples came today. Talk about a godsend. Helene recommended Musc Ravageur, which I am going to hold on to until I'm in a better, stronger emotional place. She also recommended L'Eau L'Hiver, which I'm wearing now. I love it. It's still rich and soft, but it's so different from what I normally wear.

Everyone has a story as to why they came to Alaska. This breakup is especially hard because it's the first time in 2 years that I've been able to trust again, and now it's broken.

In 2004, when I was 25 years old, I had a fiance and we had been together for five years. For the last year of our relationship he was deployed to Iraq, which was terribly rough. I dropped out of graduate school, had problems with depression, had to move back in with my folks. It was indescribably awful. But I wrote him positive, upbeat letters six days a week while he was deployed and my entire extended family (we're Sicilian) sent him care packages. He returned a totally different person in 2004. Two months after he came home, he called me at work to tell me that it was over. The wedding, everything. Two days after that, I was laid off from my job.

I was despondent. I had no idea what to do. When I stopped crying long enough to see straight, I looked for work on the internet and found this job in rural AK. They flew me up for an interview, I fell in love with the place, and moved up here with a suitcase and my two kitty cats.

After I got a change of scenery and hit the ground running, I really astounded everyone and myself with how well I bounced back. I lost a bunch of weight and became a firefighter and medic and made a bunch of friends in a totally new town. I did so well after that breakup that I guess I insulated myself too well. I didn't let anyone close. Then I met Adam and was totally reluctant to get involved. He was so sweet, and so charming, and things were really great, but ... now he's gone.

I have a lot of plans for the future, but I feel immobilized by grief at the moment. I'll still get up tomorrow and go to work because life goes on. I know that things will get better. It's the waiting around for the pain to go away that sucks the most.

That and my two sweet kitties aren't sure why their mom is making all these weird sounds and leaking water out of her face.